Delusions, Part 3

I was not taken away in the twinkling of an eye.  The date of the Second Coming came and went, and  I finished out my second term at Utah State University.  Since I was to turn 19 the next month, I submitted my papers to go on my mission, even though Dad had said that would never happen because the world as we knew it would have come to an end before I left.  I was beginning to have serious doubts about my dad and his revelations, and I knew that if I was going to go on a mission I had to either reconcile those doubts or completely disregard his teachings.

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Dad had finished retranslating all of the the scriptures that he had been told to retranslate.  

One night he called me into his room and told me to close the door.  He needed to tell me of a couple of the newest revelations from the Lord.  The first one involved me.  It was revealed to Dad that I would grow to be a mighty prophet of God,  that I would be instrumental in reuniting the Lost Tribes of Israel, and I would prepare the way for Christ to return to the Earth.  He said that this was my special purpose in life, and that I needed to keep an eye single to the glory of God in order to fulfill this purpose.  As he told me this, I felt a warm glow inside of me and a tingling feeling in my mind.  This was the Holy Ghost confirming to me that this was true.  Just as the Church teaches, if you want to know if something is true, pray to God, and if it is true, the spirit of the Holy Ghost will confirm it to you through feelings of joy and a sense of great peace. This is what I felt.

In fact, this is what I felt all along since Dad had started sharing his revelations with me.  Believe me, I prayed about them all, and I always got the same feelings.  These were the same promptings of the spirit that I felt when I prayed to know the truthfulness of the gospel, when I prayed to know that Jesus is my savior, when I prayed to know that Joseph Smith was a true prophet of God. 

There is no question that the mind and the power of suggestion can make you believe whatever it is that you want to believe.

The second big revelation that he shared with me that night was that God had told Dad that there were many women around us that were among the Elect, but who were unknowingly married to Wicked men.  There were also single women who for some reason had never married, and unbeknownst to them, it was because the Lord was saving them for a greater calling.

Both groups of these women were my father's wives.  They had been foreordained in the preexistence to come to Earth and surround Dad in his life in order to give him joy and support and make it easier for him to battle the Beast, President Benson.  So Dad was ordered by God to pray about all of the women that he knew or with whom he was acquainted, and to verify exactly who these wives were, and to write them down on a list.

Fortunately, my mother remained at the top of his list.