Stream of Consciousness Blogging

I've always wanted to write a stream of consciousness post, just for the fun of it, just to see where my mind and my fingers take me. Hopefully it doesn't end up sounding anything like Virginia Woolf, otherwise you may have to slit your wrists. Actually, no worry there. She and I couldn't be more different. Except that she had homosexual tendencies and I, well, I have more than tendencies. Plus Virginia Woolf struggled so much with depression, so much that it just engulfed her, and I can identify with that. Not necessarily because I have had chronic, engulfing depression issues, but because I have been close to people who have battled such demons and in that way I can relate. But I fear this stream of consciousness is taking me down a pathway that I really didn't want to follow, so quick! Change the subject, Jason! Ever since I started my blog, I've told myself that if I really just don't have anything to write about (which almost never happens) then I just shouldn't write anything at all. You know, kind of like how your mom used to tell me that if you didn't have anything nice to say.

"If you don't have anything to write about, then don't write anything at all."

And now it appears that I am breaking my own rule, although you really wouldn't be able to tell unless you have read clear down to this point in the post. Man! My fingers are flying across the keyboard like a popcorn in a hot fryin' pan!

Anyone out there watching Sordid Lives on Logo? It's one of those shows that you watch for the sheer shock value at how unbelievable the characters are, and it makes you feel like your own life is just so gosh darn normal. And that you're such an adjusted individual. And it's really funny, too! Plus it has two cute guys that make out a lot. . . and stuff. Rue McClanahan from Golden Girls is in it, along with Leslie Jordan from Will and Grace. Could the show get any gayer? I think not.

So guess what!?! Another little person joined our family yesterday! Little Gianna was born to Giancarlo's brother, Giampiero, and his wife, Donella. I will be following up with a whole post dedicated to this little baby girl and her parents, but let's just suffice is to say that her background is very multi-cultural! Her daddy is half Mexican, half Italian, and her mother is Scottish. And her Uncle Giancarlo's husband is a born and bred Utah boy whose ancestors came from Denmark and England to settle in Utah in the early days of the Mormon church. And Brigham Young, husband to countless wives and father to a known 51 children, is my great, great, great, great Uncle.

Anyone still reading? I certainly wouldn't have time for this type of nonsense if I were skimming through blogs, that's for sure! I try to be concise without being boring, succinct, yet with plenty of description. Not tonight, no sirree, I'm just lettin' it fly! And it's a really great feeling to just get it all out there! Mind you, I AM still filtering things. Because I know that there are a few youngsters out there that read my blog, and I want that to continue. Our children and teens need positive gay role models, ones who don't contribute to the stereotype of gay men that seems to prevail in parts of our society. You know what I'm talking about.

I'm happy to say that I am fully monogamous and I have been since I met Giancarlo---going on twelve years, and I have never tried any kind of illegal drugs, and the one time I thought it would be fun to try cigarettes (when I was 29) I sat through four whole cigarettes without even daring to inhale a single puff because I was such a chicken.

SOMEBODY stop me!

One more thing, and then I'll put my consciousness to rest. I'm thinking of changing my blog template/theme/layout. Everyone seems to be switching theirs up all over the place, and I've even gotten a few comments about people being BORED with the look of The Jason Show, particularly my header. Here I thought it was all about the writing, and not how fancy it all looks, but I get it, attractive is nice, pretty is good, boring is bad, bad, bad.

But can I let you in on a secret? I don't really dare. I'm paranoid that I'll lose everything like what happened with my pal Pumpkin Delight (she's better now) plus I just can't find something that I think really fits my personality. Some of you have very cute stuff going on with your blogs, but you know, I'm a big homo but I don't do CUTESIE. Not that there's anything wrong with that. Or you could be like my sister and change her blog theme/layout every. Single. Day.

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